Facing you
I felt on myself
a disturbing look
which carries within, the characteristics] of infinity.

…

She watches over me

Controls my thoughts

Conspiring against me

..

My body is unexplored territory

which makes mysterious movements 

in order to neglect, bury and forget

this uncomfortable confrontation with the other.

..

I was not myself.

I felt like a demon-possessed

Masked underneath, masked by my proper self

I felt like having a double personality.

I felt like a demon-possessed…

This uncomfortable confrontation with the other.

You should fight back.

You said…

Pull me out, pull me out of the deep where I hide, thinking you can’t find me there

but now I know, you, you’re always where I am

I cannot hide, not from you

if I confront you

I will finally accept myself

Fully.

…

Like a demon-possessed

Masked underneath, masked by my proper self

I felt like having a double personality.

and then finally, I open myself for malicious actions.

You said YOU have seen a shadow

and it said you should fight back

describe it

sabotage

 inner unrest

something overwhelming

shadow following me

chasing

you see you think that I’m your shadow

she said I should fight back

you said help

pull me out

you said help

I’m calm as water

to move forward I revolve around myself

there are no boundaries inside

your source is your stability

…

I was left lying 
leaning on the thin – on the side,
which connects and separates 
upper and lower torso.
Body?
Absolutely without.
I was thrown away.
Thrown.

Without.

Body?

I have not.

To experience the inner immensity

I had to sink and rise again

to the dignity of being

who admires.

Admires.

…

I wished to see an image

of pure being and pure imagination.

© Tina Bikic